Change

I changed much and I am still changing now. I have been here more than half a year. I always mention time because time means much for me. First of all, it’s a tool measure whether I improved. My classmates have been here about one or two years, and someone even more than two years. I always think about a question how much and what speed did they improve and change. Some classmates can speak fluent English, but most of them still speak guangdongnese. I don’t want to like them. I should speak English fluently fast.

Second, I should plan my future. It’s about the problem of time. I should take master degree, and have babies. I also should have my career. I don’t want to be a housewife even if my husband can earn much money. See, life is complicated. I don’t know whether I cannot give up and insist to seek my career; sometimes I really felt tired and felt not good.

The United States is a very interesting country. People come from different countries. Therefore, we have the same theme in our life—missing our hometown. I don’t like environment in China, but I really miss my hometown. This feeling makes me feel I am old. I think people living in the United States are more sensitive than people in other countries. Everyone has different backgrounds, but everyone can comprehend we have two roots. We love here and our hometown both. It makes our life dramatic and beautiful.

In the other way, because we have the different backgrounds, we should learn to be strong and to be candid. In the past half an year, I was afraid how to ask questions, and I was afraid to tell others my opinion. I always accepted what others told me to do without thinking about it. I think maybe it because I should use different language. However, I should face my weakness, and I should advance myself. I am learning how to think about everything independently, and I should learn to protect my benefit.

Yes, I changed much. I am more aggressive and more confident than before. I am still changing. I am learning speaking English fluently and natively. I am learning how to think about a question and solve it reasonably. I am lucky that I can choose my life although sometimes I feel unhappy that I should always fright for something. However, I should face the reality. Compare to others, I am lucky. I can learn everything fast, and I am a reliable person in others impression. Life is not always idealistic as we dream, but we still have hopes. I am my own and I have everything.